Rob Feder

It would not be fair to Malcolm to not share a small piece of the other side of Mal.

Most of us have a crazy story to tell about doing something with him that we are lucky to still be alive to share it.  Going out for a beer could easily turn out to be a brush with a felony or worse. 

As Malcolm got older (post sixty), he became more serious about his future, or lack there of.  His experiences are legendary, but I always felt like he regretted not having a more normal life, even having kids… if you can imagine Mal as a soccer dad.

The last time I spoke with him, he said that he believed that his judgment  had always been affected by being bi-polar.  And that drove him to do a lot of the crazy things he did.

You hear stories about famous comedians growing up sad.  They could make other people laugh, but did not feel that happiness themselves.  I think Malcolm was a lot like that.  When Al Kinser called to say that Malcolm had just died, I immediately thought of Robin Williams... that he could make everyone laugh, but did not feel it himself.

As funny and entertaining as Malcolm's escapades were, there was a side of Malcolm that felt a lot of pain inside.  I hope he left this earth happy and satisfied with the mark he made.  But I'm saddened with some of the pain that I know he experienced.

We should all remember him with fond (and terrifying) memories, but I wanted to share a deeper more serious side of him.  Isn’t it amazing how reflective all of us get as we grow older?  Rob(bie) Feder